تكسرت يوما بعد يوم، وأخباري في كل مكان وأنا على كل لسان. إنتهيت، وأريد لو أرتاح ليوم كما يرتاح المؤمنون. 

 Knowing the real MEANING. That's what we truly need in life.

You know what? I made up my mind about things, starting today I will live a life I will be proud of, no more fears or forgetting who I am or where I belong or what is mine. NO MORE FEARS. no more. 

 Cam I say something? Life is too damn hard, everyday I get up not knowing what I have left in life? Should I just work past that or apologize? 

I discovered something essential today too: Losers Make Excuses, Winners are always not. You should work hard no matter what, your mind is still trying to nourish on what you feed it, so look now, find GOOD things to FEED it and do that immediately. 

So I exist, after all this is something remarkable. I always thought being an adult entailed knowing who you are and what kind of life you wanted. How do you take your coffee, managing your own money, and going to work...

I feel like an adult, I really do sometimes, but it's this feeling of not being sane nor worthy of anything that gets me in trouble all the time. What I want is something I can make a reality with just a little bit of effort, a little motivation and some time. 

I was like a lonely cloud in the sky hoping for other clouds to join me so it might rain and then comes a sunny day.

I had principles and firm beliefs, one of which is one is a clean slate that is not to be tainted with other people's views of the world.

another was the fact that I can do it, that I actually have the chance and I don't have to doubt that, ever. 

I am in the phase of my life where I have to be confident.

I don't feel anymore apparently.

I am no longer AFRAID. 

BACK OFF.

I always thought that as long as I was reading I would be able to make sense of the world, I guess.

I never not liked myself. I guess people grow up and know more. but I faltered. :(

ولا تملك لنفسها نفعا ولا ضرا 

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك أشهد أن لا إله إلا أنت، أستغفرك وأتوب إليك :)

Hello my name is Lubnah, i am 24 and will be 25 in September. I am taking classes from the translation department. And one elective. Espanol.

I feel like my whole life has dwindled to nothingness/ كل كتاباتي عدمية 

بمعنى أنها تعبر عن ما لا يوجد 

The idea of nothingness has always appealed to me. 

It's okay if you don't understand, Allah knows everything, just focus on those thoughts that will make the burden feels less heavy.  

عربيتي غريبة في لساني!

ولا أعرف ماذا أكتب ولما أكتبه!

أنا الخيال الواسع الذي سوف تنطفأ جذوة جمره يوما ما لأنه لم يحمل شيئا من الواقع وما لامسه. وأنا تلك العيون المنتخفة من نوم أحسد عليه ولم يجدي نفعه. أنا الرفات فوق القبور الذي يذكر أيا ما كان بأني كنت يوما إنسانة. أنا العربية التي محوتها مني يوما بعد يوم،

I am everything fading away that used to be shiny, sparkly or glittered. 

I feel like I am being soooooo stupid, but this is not an awakening call. 

You're my my my my LOVER.

Adjust your whole life to your comfort but not you so that it becomes comfortable :)

i am going to be better :) 

Everything I wanted happened but I paid the price for it.

i am learning spanish now :) 

Ed sheeran man

i am a girl who is mostly interested in being okay mentally and psychologically. i feel like there is so much more to life than just living in vain and being alone. without feeling satisfied on the inside. my philosophy has always been to like what i am doing and try doing something better and better, be refined in any profession. Right now i am a translation major at university and i am learning about english and arabic and quite enjoying it, although i have to admit i don't understand everything about it. i wanted to be the best in the past i guess that makes me a little worldly gains kind of person. but i am not just that person i am so much more. i am a language enthusiast, learning for pleasure, tea addicted (trying to be healthy) kind of person. there is so much else to be said and told but i am feeling kindda sick and i don't know what else to do but be relentless in my quest of self revelation. 

وقالوا قلوبنا غلف بل لعنهم الله بكفرهم

i think about this verse from time to time and i think to myself this must be my stone hard heart

i want to be okayyyyyyy man, have something warm in my body and feel good. :)

stop harming other people like you don't know the kind of pain she must've gone through and you will never know probably. :(